the intro: is this right for me?
aka the title of my memoir- "Am I hopping on a bandwagon because it's cool or because I actually want to?"
Okay so like 18 of my friends have substacks. Which is great. I even pay for a few. I read them and love them and then I get the intrusive thoughts:
I could have a substack
I could do that
But could I?
Work is a lot right now
And who even wants to read
And like everyone and their mother has one now so if I do it it will be seen as stupid even though you don’t think anyone else’s is stupid.
I don’t have a lot to say to help anyone
Except I do
But I hate failing
So let’s just not
So I don’t. And I read others’ and see their success (we are being v honest in this space) and then the obtrusive thoughts ramp right back up.
But then you have little glimmers of light shining through the ugly cracks of your negative thoughts that affirm maybe your thoughts aren’t that bad and maybe, just maybe your ideas have validity.
Like Hannah asking me if I’ve thought about starting one
OF COURSE I HAVE, HANNAH I WANT TO BE COOL LIKE YOU AND 18 OF OUR FRIENDS.
So here we are. I am going to try this for a few months. See how it goes. See what I want to share and if it has any value in the world. Because here’s the thing about me…
I present as someone who has their s#!^ together. And in many ways, I do. But it’s because of this nagging, constant voice within me that must be stopped via organization, time hacks, and constant improvement.
There are things in my life that I do that people comment on as “smart” and I think of it as “normal” or “needed” in my life. Those things I want to start breaking down and thinking of and sharing with people. Not out of influencing, but out of a desire of coming alongside others and going “SEE IT CAN BE BETTER.”
Rachel had the genius idea of “categories” that go with “Lauren loves to”
LAUREN LOVES TO:
READ
REALIZE
ORGANIZE
BUY
EAT&DRINK
WEAR
WATCH
LISTEN
TRAVEL
SHARE
These are going to be my base categories. And I will probably throw in others for shits and gigs every once in awhile. Because this is my newsletter & I can do what I want and that feels fun to me.
I’m thinking these will come out the first week of the month and reflect on the previous month so next one will come out soon and be about all things ✨January ✨